STFU. He might very well be for real. My feelings about him are complicated as fuck, and might be for a long time. He probably played a role in my banning(s) which, some of them were unfair. Wouldn't unban me despite unbanning Lupine Assassin, but maybe because I was only perma'd from the forums, which was technically and I guess in spirit a different community, that could have something to do with it? Now, this is the same guy that when I first joined, we both trolled somebody like a tag-team, briefly. Some kid was really upset about life or things, and we just respond with pics of tacos and chilidogs. Neither of us were very good at living consistently by our values, and piss a lot of people off, push people away, end up lonely. And yet I don't get how the hell I end up working out more, smoking less, playing less video games and he ends up even more consumed by those and less active. It should've been flipped, I felt like I had so much less going for me. So I have to try to be less judgmental towards him now, because I genuinely was a loose canon on forums oftentimes, and he genuinely needed a better community to govern. If I could go back, I would try much harder to give him that, and maybe then my complaints might feel less hypocritical? So, it's rare for me to ever sympathize with Rakuen here, but I do because I get the mix of not being on good terms with someone, yet feeling like you'd give anything to give them the other half of their life back like they deserve. That's despite him losing the submissions on his account (but, Rakuen? They might still exist on a certain furry archive I found, where some of my lost pics are) and me and Red Savage and Milo's friends losing their memorial thread he deleted with the rest of Rants & Raves. It's all history now, ya know? What is there left to sustain any grudge?
STFU. He might very well be for real. My feelings about him are complicated as fuck, and might be for a long time. He probably played a role in my banning(s) which, some of them were unfair. Wouldn't unban me despite unbanning Lupine Assassin, but maybe because I was only perma'd from the forums, which was technically and I guess in spirit a different community, that could have something to do with it? Now, this is the same guy that when I first joined, we both trolled somebody like a tag-team, briefly. Some kid was really upset about life or things, and we just respond with pics of tacos and chilidogs. Neither of us were very good at living consistently by our values, and piss a lot of people off, push people away, end up lonely. And yet I don't get how the hell I end up working out more, smoking less, playing less video games and he ends up even more consumed by those and less active. It should've been flipped, I felt like I had so much less going for me. So I have to try to be less judgmental towards him now, because I genuinely was a loose canon on forums oftentimes, and he genuinely needed a better community to govern. If I could go back, I would try much harder to give him that, and maybe then my complaints might feel less hypocritical? So, it's rare for me to ever sympathize with Rakuen here, but I do because I get the mix of not being on good terms with someone, yet feeling like you'd give anything to give them the other half of their life back like they deserve. That's despite him losing the submissions on his account (but, Rakuen? They might still exist on a certain furry archive I found, where some of my lost pics are) and me and Red Savage and Milo's friends losing their memorial thread he deleted with the rest of Rants & Raves. It's all history now, ya know? What is there left to sustain any grudge?